ya ya I know havent posted in a while but no ones reading this so who cares!!!!!
kk so I know that no one reads any of the shit IM posting but I still like to post on here!!! I like posting on here because its like posting all of my worries and feelings out and even though no one reads it at lest i can read it and go back on how I was feeling at diff times and stuff and man I have been having a really weird week!! you know I find that posting is more like talking to myself ( I tend to talk to myself alot)
I know it seems weird but when you have no one else to talk to in life it becomes normal. I mean I do try to look for people to talk to but when I do they dont want to here about what wrong with me , they dont like it , its as if my worries dont matter and I know that it sounds kinda selfesh
(witch I can be at time ok mabye alot but Im trying to stop that) but I want some one to talk to really badly and this blog is sort of like that person , I mean hey its probly better then talking to myself ? I know by now I sound really crazy
(witch I probly am) but I know Im not the only one thats like this and by "this" I mean "atic-socaile,weird,unable to fit into sosity and talks to stuff that isnt there" . well I found some one else who is like "this" I dont know exsacly who she is but her story almost sounds the exsact same as mine , hears what she said
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i just have to say this before i go completely insane! my mom is a ass. never lets me do anything. i cant even go to the park ACROSS THE STREET! i hardly ever leave the house except to go to a school were 9/10's of the school hate me. and they have good reason. i have no social skills making me look like a ass. but all i realy want is a friend. god that sounded so pathetic. me being alone all the time has pushed me to the brink of accual insanity. i see things all the time. little bugs moving around me only to vanish as soon as i look closer, i frequently see ghosts. i once even talked to a spider. i do go to therapy. but somehow that adds more stress to my already maxed out life. and the bad thing is i have nothing to stress over. i try to relax all the time. i love walking through my yard. its so beautiful. flowers and birds everywere. but i always thing someone is watching me. criticiing me. even if i have a good day like the past week im depressed. finaly i have stopped cutting but the scars are still fresh and my mom will find out eventually. i feel like my life is on the edge. anyone else having these feelings?
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what she said really related to me I mean I feel just like her
I have more friends on the intrernet then I do in real life
Im not aloud to go to my park alone
people at my school hate me
I talk to myself
I also love going for walks
and I feel like IM always being watched
hers what I wrote back to her
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wow your life sounds alot like mine I rarly leave my house to and I always feel like there are people watching me but Im also bit crazy to , you shouldnt worrie life passes by everyday sooner or later your life will become orgenized and timed and you wont even now it. ps. talking to ghost and spider is more comen then you think trused me :)
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well yes thats what I wanted to say for now oh
p.s. the post befor this is a week old but my bloger hasnt been working right so I had to post it latter on sorry
